Last Day Of March

THE DREAM I had a dream last night and I can't say it made me feel good. I dreamed I let Claire the dog loose in some bathroom and she kept running at full speed from one wall to the other. So much so she smacked into the wall the first time. And the second time she smacked into the wall again and this time she went down. As in I thought she was dead. I went out looking for Lisa to let her know. I mean it wasn't my fault was it? And minutes later she was actually alive. Hurt and dazed and confused. But at least alive. I definitely want to know what this dream meant. Something in my care gets destroyed? Couldn't be Johnnie could it? But somehow it still made it alive? In bad shape but somehow alive? So i know in this dream the dog is out of control. Is there a part of me that is out of control and that is now dead? Could it be the lifestyle that has fed into dis-ease? And now it may not be totally dead so I must still remain vigilant? That's as good an explanation as any isn't it?

In the meantime now that Thursday mornings are actually my busiest time of the week since I have all these meetings, we add the OCHIN Quarterly Meeting to this week's lineup. Lineup already included the IS Team Meeting, my one-on-one with my boss Dennis, the EHR Team Meeting. And so I actually had a full morning. I didn't even have time to take Claire out for her usual 10 AM morning walk. And so in short order, I finished my meetings, took the dog out to do her thing, had me my lentil lunch paired with a nice piece of salmon. I'm feeling good about how healthy that is actually. And then settled back to watch this week's episode of Picard SE02E05. This week we find that Picard has found the Watcher who is tasked with one purpose: to keep one thread of life safe. And that would be Renee Picard, Capt Picard's great great aunt or something like that. Isn't it funny how one change in one timeline to one life changes everything. Talk about a butterfly effect. Which is why no matter what I am still grateful for my time with Lisa. After all, without her push would I have been able to get to have a son like Johnnie on my own, or with another? Perhaps. But not likely. I thought about that as I picked him up from school today. My generally happy son who I would love nothing more than to keep talking about dragons and other mythical creatures. I would have loved to have those kinds of creative juices cultivated in me when I was his age. Still, I was also focused on making sure he works on his weaknesses today, which is his actual penmanship and also his 2nd grade math. I know I know, he's ahead. I want to keep him that way. Today in the writing exercises I gave him, all he could write about was ME. How bossy I was just then. How I keep laughing at him for getting him. I promised him a surprise. Never could he have guessed it was the writing exercise LOL LOL LOL. That absolutely made my day. And that was all before his Spanish lesson too. Today he learned about fruits. Got about 13 or 14 of them under his belt. Then and only then did he get his Panda Express dinner. It was only 5:30 but I knew Lisa would call early tonight. She had the day off but spent the afternoon at her piano lesson in Pasadena. Her call came at 6 PM actually. It came with the requisite update of not-so-positive news coming about her office. This time it's her dentist giving her notice. Is that really bad news? I am trying so hard not to get emotionally sucked in. All I can do is listen to vent WITHOUT letting it affect MY OWN emotional state. 

As it was I dropped Johnnie and Claire off around 6:45 PM. Plenty of time for me to go home for ME TIME. All that means is getting my Healy session done earlier than usual actually. And simply watching some more TV. Today is the last day in March. 1st Quarter all done. How did the first quarter of the year go? I will say that though it looks like same old same old on the outside, (a) it does feel like we're finally moving out of the fear state of the pandemic. Meaning it is feeling more and more like it's back to normal. (b) I am feeling more grounded to the right path and I am seeing more and more manifestation results. And that is VERY GOOD.

Quiet For A Wednesday

Used to be that Wednesday would be my busy day, but I looked at my schedule last night and it was empty. As in I only had the one meeting with my Data Team. Of course I did have a couple of calls from a couple of the exec mgmt. Marina of course would be bugging me about some issues with the WELL platform. That's after she had emailed me and I had penned a rather curt and possibly irritated response. That I then discarded. I remind myself to keep my REACTIONS to a minimum. After all, if all I have to do is whatever a problem is all I need to do is direct it to Source and Source takes care of it, what do I care?! And so that's what I did with the Marina phone call. Stopped worrying about it and let the solution present itself. Which it did, right in the phone call. All I have to do is doctor the report that she wants no harm no foul. That done I went out and did something different for lunch. I looked for some place within easy proximity that I can have a fish lunch. Enter Baja California tacos on Venice, not even a mile from my apartment. I had a couple of fish tacos and all I had to do was not eat the taco, just the fish, cabbage, and tomatoes it came with. And then I had fish ceviche too. Really good. REally tart. Excellent to put over a salad. It was an EXCELLENT CHOICE and definitely the PLAY OF THE DAY. And so all done with a great lunch, I did some meditation from Sapien Medicine for the first part of the afternoon. They have such a great catalog of frequency and auditory sessions. And I found it to nicely complement the Healy stuff I've done for the past week or so. I am looking forward to seeing some numbers when I get my blood test done Friday. The bottom line is that my RHR has stayed at 66 for the last 3 days. And more importantly, I've felt a lot better. Leaner. Healthier. A lot more clarity in my thinking. I know I've probably eaten my last IN-N-Out Burger, at least for a while. But in exchange for how I feel today? That's an easy ask. I feel like there is already a story to be told about lifestyle changes to feel better. Something to already share with other folks. Maybe it can help someone else. I realize I'm still in the minority when it comes to beliefs about our energetic bodies and how working on that is actually far more effective than working on our biochemichal body through pharmaceuticals. But maybe I can help move us to critical mass. After all, only a couple of years ago no one was driving electric cars really. Now all I can see on YouTube channels are electric car reviews! BTW Looking forward to driving my TEsla Model Y soon too :) 

I spent the rest of the afternoon catching up on steps. Until it was time to pick up Johnnie that is. It is Spanish class day after all. And then pizza night right after that. AND I have a new pizza to try too. A dairy-free, meat-free pizza from Whole Foods. I am looking forward to seeing how this tastes. When I drove up to Johnnie's school, I see him playing soccer with another kid along the fence. I see him having fun. And he reported to me that he actually did eat his banana and his chips for lunch. Not the healthiest choices I will acknowledge. But hey at least he ate SOMETHING. And besides, I'm about to feed him a small pizza aren't I? As far as his Spanish class, he is coming along. Today Hayil his teacher focused on the days of the week and other phrases. I zoned out during the test because  I had to prep his pizza and mine. Like always Johnnie will do fine with a little bit of repetition. And I am not concerned at all with his pace of learning.  I also zoned out because I had to deal with a call from work. This time, Starlette the new Director of Development. I found it funny that 2 people who I roll my eyes on when I hear them talk are people who called me today. It was like I was being tested or something. Marina I roll my eyes simply because she is impatient. And so deadline driven. Starlette I roll my eyes because she simply is new and knows nothing about our operations and talks more than she learns. I'm thinking she is not much into detail but who knows, I may be wrong. Either way, the solution was the same. I hand it over to Source, I smile, and go on with my day. And then watch and smile as Johnnie goes through his Spanish lesson. He's a gamer. Later on, I would do some extra stuff with his writing - he now has to write 4 sentences about his day. If he has a weakness, it is in his writing and so we focus on that specifically. I give him advanced stuff too. Two digit subtraction using borrowing. That's second grade level stuff. And Johnnie is already there. And he makes short work of my excercises too. So tonight Johnnie and Dad enjoy a pizza. He with his Boboli cheese pizza, and me trying this new stuff from Whole Foods. It's like having Beyond meat crumbles on top of the pizza. The dough is supposed to be made from chickpeas, and the cheese is supposed to be a cheese substitute that is non-dairy. All in all it wasn't bad actually. It wasn't as delicious as a real pizza but it will do. Especially when I put pineapple on top of it. I think I like the Boboli cauliflower crust better though. I was plenty full. More than full in fact. I had plenty of food. I might even have felt bloated there for a bit, or maybe that's just because I'm no longer used to ingesting that much food. I worked it off with doing some vigorous steps and noted that I got to 75 steps even before I had 10000 steps logged. As in, I'm already close to 300 steps for the week and it's only Wednesday. I watched some Dragon Rescue Riders with Johnnie too, noting that he had a couple of more new dragons to learn about and put in his catalog. That creative part Johnnie will not have a problem with whatsoever. He's still in bed by 9 PM, I'm doing my Healy session and asleep myself less than an hour later. Still all good. 

Different Realities

So I AM finding that the more I anchor to my image cycling, the more they are feeling real. Which bodes well for their manifestation. I mean I am manifesting all the time already. I can even feel an increase in money flow and the feeling of wealth generally. And of course, even with that little hiccup with the blood-in-the-urine thing, it is looking more and more like a simply louder message than usual that I need to change something.  Something I need to shift my focus on. And still all is fine after all that. Today the duality of a reality I envision to my current reality butted heads a little bit in the morning. Because it's Tuesday I only had my team meeting to do and then I had other catch-up stuff on other projects. After all, people are still pinging me left and right. I remind myself NOT TO REACT and simply to keep providing as much value as I can. All will take care of themselves, all goes in my favor. That said, the second I got done with my meeting, I sort of shifted my focus from work to other-than-work stuff. I watched more vibrational videos from Sapien medicine. I did even more image cycling as I noticed I did the bulk of it already while walking around my neighborhood this morning. AND I got caught up downloading some books on vibrational frequencies, and energetic healing more and more. Eventually, I want to provide value that way, to help heal others or maybe to help bring information to folks to help them heal themselves. As I am experiencing now and to help people awaken to their energetic bodies more so than the Western medicine biochemical focus. I understand it takes more focus to get consistent. It's like my golf game. I can't just show up and start swinging away. I actually need to make sure my intention and my focus are aligned. And then I need to learn to let go. I did that this morning by introducing "Wouldn't be cool if..." statements. Wouldn't it be cool if my investment accounts already totalled more than $1Million. It isn't that far off after all already. Wouldn't it be cool if my PSA test came back normal at 2 or below? I scheduled a blood draw at Forward for Friday. We will find out soon enough. I'm already pretty sure my other cholesterol marks will be good. That's what a couple of weeks of juicing and no meat will do. As far as my Blood Pressure, I need to simply learn to lower it myself on demand. I already do it. I simply need to do it more intentionally. And consistently. Just like my golf game. Sigh. Anyway all that to make it easier to release and detach. The very last step before manifestation. Give it to the Source. I'm actually very pleased that I am concentrating more focus and attention to all these activities. Looking at my past books shows that I was already exposed to all these modalities and systems in the past. What was lacking was consistency and focus. I let the grind of daily life take over. I think I'm getting better at balancing that now. This morning was a pretty good example. Two realities tugging at one another. But at least I was aware. And the balancing act is something I need to continue to do until the manifestation takes place.  And there isn't just the reality of work either. Come 5 PM, my primary job takes over. Picking up Johnnie and then optimizing the next 3 hours I have with him. Making sure he remains grounded and a happy kid. We went to  Sawtelle Panda Express for his dinner of course. And when I got home, there is also the reality of my new eating patterns. I chopped up a bunch of veggies. Cabbage, squash, red pepper, red onion, spinach. Threw in some shrimp and voila... a pretty good shrimp stir fry. No carbs or anything. It was still pretty darn good. And then the last picture in the group says it all. That's Johnnie doing his jumping and running indoors just to burn off some energy. By then we had done his Spanish review, his math review, and his writing exercises. He earned playtime. He earned his Dragon Rescue Riders video.  And by bedtime, he was also pretty tired. As was I.  I still had to do my PURE Healy Routine of course to clean up energetically. I noticed that my REsting Heart Rate had stayed at 66 today. That's another first. The 'thermostat' seems to have lowered. That's a very good thing. I closed my eyes and went to sleep satisfied that I had had a pretty good day. I realized that I hadn't done much, not really. But I didn't have to do anything. I just had to feel good all day. That I did. THAT I did.

Rainy Days and Mondays

Today turned out to be a Monday and a rainy day at that. I'm not going to complain considering the drought conditions the state of California seems to be in. Besides, it's early spring and not even April yet. We're supposed to experience a shower or two before it starts getting warmer. And so this morning I got up and did my walk anyway, rain notwithstanding. What's a little water anyway? I did the route I did last week, which was to walk to Whole Foods, and then walk home the other direction to circle back. And so not only did I get a nice walk in the rain <and really it wasn't like it was raining hard too>, I got my steps in AND got my celery/apple/carrot juice breakfast as well. And when I checked my Fitbit, I noticed my resting heart rate was at 66! I mean talk about excellent metrics since I started this juice thing. I don't think I have ever recorded it that low. Just goes right in with the B/P readings that were low as well. Whatever I'm doing I guess I simply need to continue doing them. Also a great thing is that since I got such an early jump on the HRSA report that I usually spend every other Monday doing and the payroll as well, I got both completed by 9:30. Wow. Most of my work and 5000 steps done even before 10 AM! What to do with my morning? Suddenly I had to urge to give myself a haircut. Yep, my hair is starting to look a little scraggly. Why not fix it myself right now while I am in the mood to do it? Of course it's going to have some uneven edges. I'm not a pro you know. But after I shaved down, it looked far less scarggly than before. Then and ONLY THEN did I get in the shower and wash off the grime of the weekend.  I actually felt like I got a ton accomplished today already. And so when Lisa gave me a call asking if I could come over to watch Johnnie since she had a doctor's appointment for 1:30 today, I was happy to do so. We even talked about lunch although her idea was still really just berries and peanuts. And for once, that would have been ok with me since I don't eat my usual meat and/or junk that I am now off of. Still I did have my salmon salad lunch just so I'm not starving when I get over there. I packed up my computer and basically we all simply sat down for tea. Green tea that is and that was just fine with me already.

Now what to do with Johnnie for the rest of this rainy day? I could let him play inside. But why not simply let him watch Dragon Rescue Riders until Lisa got back? Seemed like a much simpler mode of activity. And actually, mom and son didn't really have breakfast until 11 AM. That's Lisa just being Lisa. She didn't need lunch. For Johnnie however, I made sure he didn't skip it. I made him a bowl of pasta and red sauce and he ate the entire bowl. This makes sure he has at least one really good meal for the day. After all, I don't know what Lisa intended to do for dinner either. I know she has a soccer game early. And she talked about her dad coming over. She wanted to bring Johnnie and so I went home at 4:30 PM and got him his raincoat. No sense getting all wet if he's going out there. And that was around the time Lisa got back from her appointment. When I headed back I had it in my head that since I was going to bake the tilapia I had in my fridge for my dinner tonight. I thought perhaps she would also maybe eat the pea/lentils Indian food I was going to supplement it with. And for good measure I went to Whole Foods to get some cabbage and red onion. Yes my intention was to make dinner for the both of us. When I got back to Lisa's I was told her parents weren't coming after all. So the coast was already clear. Johnnie had already made avocado turkey sandwiches <bless that little kid's heart you know?!> and Lisa had made her own red cabbage and onion and was in the middle of baking chicken strips. Oh well, I figured she'd just let me put my fish in the oven AND heat up my lentils so I could join them for dinner.  Wouldn't you know I didn't use a cover in my lentils in the microwave and it exploded all over the microwave.  All I could was apologize. All she could do was tell me to walk away and cleaned it herself.  This is what happens usually with some extended time spent with Lisa. Something always goes awry and I feel like I wasn't perfect enough. THAT is the crux of the continuing learning lesson that is a Lisa interaction.  Yes I KNOW I am going to feel very much restricted and under her rules and judgement. But then THAT is why we're not together and I have my own place now don't I? And nights like tonight I am very much relieved that THAT is the case. I can only think of what that stuff does to my inner sanctum, my emotional well-being. And so I let Johnnie go with her while I took Claire home. Even talking about summer plans and money in our joint account had a negative feeling behind it with me. I'm sure it's just old patterns. I'm sure I'm going to need to work to release them. And it's all about control isn't it? And so It was that I would pick up Johnnie at the soccer field and when we got to my apartment BOTH of us exclaimed "HOME SWEET APARTMENT!" Amen to that.  It was close to 8 PM already by this time. Close to milk time for Johnie and then bed time. And I followed shortly thereafter after doing my HEALY PURE routine.  A lot more to clean up today than yesterday I think. But I'm all good. We're all good.

Golf at Penmar

We hadn't played at Penmar in more than a month. I picked it today since it was easiest to get a tee time for and I thought for a little while there I was going to go to Arizona at Greg's invite to watch Dodgers Spring baseball AND play golf. That meant I would have been out until today. I really gotta work more on simply getting out of the house and doing more stuff like that. I mean, Lisa and Johnnie spent the weekend in Santa Clarita after all, although we did all manage to have a nice and brief family morning yesterday. Anyway I posted a pic I found of Greg hitting his tee shot at Hole 5 in Altadena 3 years ago almost to the day. Who knew a year from then we'd all be locked down by a pandemic. Heck I myself was barely a year removed from Maplewood and the divorce wasn't even final yet. Those days, Johnnie was still at Blue Oak and that was my focus I think. I was in the process of rebuilding my life.  Enough of that brief time travel though. These days it's just Scott and I. I do miss playing with Greg. Chris, not so much. This morning I treated myself to a different juice. Who knew there was a Robek's right across the street from Whole Foods? I grabbed myself a smoothie that was green but tasted of banana and mango. That would be sufficient for breakfast. This being Penmar, I expected to have a pretty good game. Especially since they were sodding the regular tee boxes and so the ones we teed off from were much more forward and much more closer to the hole. On my first drive alone, it was errant but it was already 50 yards from the hole to the righ in the trees. I still had a clear shot. But I shanked it left and past the hole and that cost me a par. I was ok with a birdie but still. After 4 holes, I was bogey-double-bogey-bogey-par. Yes I was at bogey golf. And I did get my requisite par on Hole 4. Again though, we were so close to the hole already I felt like I could have teed off all the way to the green. What happened after Hole 4 though? I had a bad Hole 5 all the way to a 6, a decent first 2 shots on Hole 6, but kept whiffing from the fairway. Same with Hole 7. I don't know what happened. I think I simply lost focus and stopped thinking about the hole. I was just up there swinging. And more often than not, I swung and missed. Lesson of the day: keep up the focus. Keep up with the game. Oh well. I went to Crimson right after and today I did something different. I can't eat rice obviously. I just had the salmon, the salad that came with it and the lentil soup. That was all perfectly good! And then I went home to try to duplicate the excellent meditation session I had yesterday. There is, of course a big difference between trying to do something and just simply doing it. I had a decent session but not like yesterday. I had it in my mind that I was going to finish tomorrow's work stuff today. But then I stopped and wondered why I wanted to do that? To get ahead? To tank tomorrow instead? I compromised with myself. I finished everyone's time cards. And as far as the big to-do, which was the HRSA survey? I simply decided to wait until tomorrow. After all the weather forecast says rain. Looks like I'll be inside mostly. What I did do was finish an identity check request that came from the IRS. I wonder why I got one of those? Maybe it's because my refund was large. $3K in all actually. That's a nice chunk. And so I went thorugh the whole identity rigamarole thing and got it all done. For the rest of the evening I watched the Walking Dead and I watched the last part of the Oscars. I'm glad CODA won Best Picture.  I was perplexed at how emotional Will Smith got when he accepted Best Actor. And then I found out he had done something very strange just a half hour previously. Chris Rock did a joke on Jada his wife and he walked up to Chris and slapped him. Right there. In front of everyone. Why is THAT acceptable? Chris Rock's joke was in poor taste no doubt. But they both were in the wrong then. It is people lashing out like that in reaction though that we could do less of. Lesson to learn for me perhaps? Watch MY reactions? At the end of the evening, it was still almost midnight when I got to bed. Weekend over after a week that saw me work more than usual. We'll focus on next week being easier.

Balance on A Saturday

So I was supposed to go to Lisa's this morning so I could watch Johnnie while she went to a Pilates class. I was happy to do that if only to spend what time I could with him this weekend. I just want to practice creating a great hour with him to anchor the weekend with. No planning, no nothing, let's see if I can come up with MAGIC. When I got there, mom and son had barely gotten out of bed. No problem there, Lisa worked until late last night. She has of course earned sleeping in for as late as possible this morning. And so now I get to make Johnnie HIS breakfast this morning. Of course I had already gotten my juice from Whole Foods by this time so I'm all good.  I was also thinking that while I had a great B/P reading last night, I also made it through the night without getting up once and going to the bathroom. Hmm. Fancy that. That hasn't happened in a really long time too. Pretty cool that I am getting in balance physically. And SO, while Lisa headed off to her Pilates class, I made Johnnie his sourdough bread breakfast. Funny how he eats way differently when he's at this house than when he is at mine. I gave him a glass of milk to top that off and fill him up. Look at the pic of him in the foyer eating his breakfast.  Pretty cool shot I thought. And then when he got done for breakfast, I let him watch a couple of episodes of Dragon Rescue Riders. Give him a treat for his Saturday with his mom. And then of course we were simply goofing off and horseplaying. He's not so easy to ward off or fend off anymore since he is getting bigger. And I'm sure he has fun throwing his body around with abandon when trying to take something from me that I'm keeping away from him. When Lisa got back from Pilates exactly 45 minutes later, we were playing around that way. She made a comment about breakfast and I sit there just chuckling inwardly about what would make her think we would make her breakfast while she was out. It's that old, you have to think of me program I think. And that's fine. I happily got up and made her sourdough toast too. And Johnnie joined in and made her coffee. And so in the end, Lisa got her dream morning. She sat in the couch relaxed with breakfast while Johnnie and I were playing our animal word game in the dining room. Even Lisa commented that this was her ideal morning. And then Lisa asked me to come along and walk Claire to her dog groomers a couple of blocks down the road. I was happy to do that of course. Wby not get my steps in right now? And so it was that by the time we got back, we actually added a nice family walk in too, even as Lisa had to pick up Claire's poop with grass because she forgot to bring a poop bag. By the time I drove home, I was thinking to myself: How about that... I got more than just a Magic Hour with Johnnie, I got a nice morning with Johnnie AND Lisa too. I will take that any time.

I made a detour at Whole Foods to pick up lunch. And that was probably the only not-so-good thing that happened today. I picked up some Beyond crumbles and also some veggie fettuccini that was made without flour. It was supposed to be ready to eat in 1 minute and 45 seconds. But I didn't pul the fettuccini together and I undercooked it. And then I overcooked the crumbles. And so my vegetarian fettuccini bolognese ended up being an I'm-just-glad-I-have-something to eat plate. It was terrible. And the fettucini alone cost me  $8. That's compared to $2 for the regular pasta. Boy, eating healthy sure is more expensive sometimes isn't it? I then decided to take a little nap for the afternoon. And what happened during this was probably one of the best hours of theta meditation I have ever done. I did some image cycling and I knew I was doing it. But my Fitbit registered that I had taken an hour-an-and-half nap. That was very cool to do. And afterwards I felt very much refreshed! So much so I decided to walk to Trader Joe's to do grocery shopping. Not just that though, that would also help me finish my steps for the day. And so by the time I got back I felt that I already had had a pretty nice and balanced Saturday. And I concluded it with watching Power of the Dog, of the films nominated for the Oscars happening tomorrow night. It had at least a dozen nominations. You figured it would be this awesome movie. It was a movie about a cowboy in the 1920s who was pretty tough and pretty much of an asshole with his brother's wife and son. I did NOT see the significance of this story. Was it a feel good story? Nope. Did it have a redeeming lesson? Nope, other than you better not come in contact with anthrax. There were some hints about sexuality as in Brokeback Mountain. A whole bunch of men stuck in one place for a very long time can lead to stuff I suppose. Was the story relatable? Nope. What do I care about an asshole cowboy in the 1920s? Was it well-acted? Yes. Benedict Cumberbatch is an excellent actor.  But I  would not see this movie just to see this particular acting performance. After all, I'm already used to seeing him as Dr. Strange. The bottom line is I don't know why it got all these Oscar nominations. We; will have to see what/if it wins anything tomorrow night. In the meantime, I went to bed thinking I had a pretty nice Saturday didn't I?

A Working Friday

So today is Friday and after the usual get-up-early-to-get a day pass for Lisa for Johnnie and to lock up my tee time for next Sunday, I got ready to head to LIsa's. This morning she is the mystery reader for Johnnie's class and I couldn't be any more tickled.  I'm over there simply to support her. Or more likely to make sure she has no technology issues while she tries to get on Zoom. I grabbed my now usual juice breakfast from Whole Foods and went over there to enjoy the show. As it was she did very very well. She engaged the class and even asked questions to a couple of students that she knew. Or at least the 2 students she knew well. That would be Johnnie and Brooklyn. The whole thing took less than 10 minutes and I'm sure Johnnie was proud of his mommy as I was proud of my ex-wife LOL. I had to stick around Lisa's house because I also had to do a 9:30 meeting this morning to meet with the folks doing the IT Audit. Yep, my area is getting audited. I could feel myself being crusty in the beginning with the questioning, not really prepared emotionally to be asked detail questions about our environment by someone who knew IT, let alone someone who's job it was to pick it apart or to find holes. I"m sure there are holes. I mean I've run a skeleton IT crew for almost 4 years now when Justin left. The fact that I am able to keep everything running and fairly securely at that I will give myself a pat on the back for. I mean even if they did find something, the auditors were already saying I was way WAY outgunned as it stands. And that's ok. It IS the truth. But still just this week, I keep getting that IT is over budget. What to do... Anyway I finished my meeting at Lisa's house and then I stuck around to do at least my load of laundry. And I took a shower too. And so by the time I got back to my apartment, it was still before noon and the laundry i did I threw in the dryer. And then I got my lunch in before I did yet another meeting. This one was the EHR Team Meeting. I couldn't meet with them yesterday so we moved it to today. And it did last for more than an hour. So yes I've already worked way more today than I normally do on a Friday LOL.

And since I was already in work mode, I kept working through the afternoon until it was time to pick up Johnnie. I got an early start on the time cards and the data exports for the HRSA report due Tuesday. I always want to get that completely done by Monday so I don't have to deal with it past that.  I actually did feel good that I got a lot of work done today. So much so I didn't focus on my step count and realized I was barely at 3000 by 4 PM. I walked the equivalent of a mile inside my apartment to get to 5000 at least before i went to get Johnnie, knowing full well that when I do get him and get him settled, I won't be able to do my neighborhood walk anymore, though really nothing is stopping me from doing that after I drop Johnnie off.  Anyway today I made him some penne pasta and heated up chicken teriyaki so that's a plus that I didn't have to buy anything. And for me, I made the other half of the Boboli cauliflower pizza with pineapple and Beyond meatballs. It filled me up just fine. And then Johnnie and I spent the rest of the evening just goofing off really. I mean it IS Friday night. I let him watch whatever he wanted for as long as he wanted knowing full well this was the last TV he was going to get for the rest of the weekend including Monday. Today there would be no early call from Lisa. And  I was not expecting one simply because she went in to work later than usual this morning as it was. She was complaining about having to pay more for what is now full foundation work on her house AND she was about to drop $75K on her grand piano. She did say she had the money and I knew she did. Because these are simply choices and priorities, not truly necessities. I didn't think the foundation was going to totally crack even 4 years ago when I paid for the fix. I paid attention to her complaints though because I knew it had something to do with me somehow. Some lesson, some intuition I needed to pay attention to. Whatever it was she was still complaining about it tonight when she finally came home. I took Johnnie back to her house around 8:30, got him started on his shower by 8:45. That's when she came home. I had no complaints. I got a full 3 hours with my son. And then I went home and wound down myself. By tonight I had already gotten used to getting a PURE session in on the Healy device before going to bed.  And then I checked my blood pressure afterwards. LO and BEHOLD it came in at 110/74. That was while doing nothing different or special, not moving my arm higher to sort of "cheat" a little bit. This was the lowest I had recorded in quite some time. Many years I'd say. Boy that image cycling surely works doesn't it. More proof that it does. Thank you Universe. Thank you GOD. It was a really really good day.

Another Day At the Office

For the second straight day, I'm up early and headed to the office today, this time at the East Third site. The meeting there this morning was an extension of yesterday's Leadership conference and also was a discussion on Strategic goals. And oh by the way I'm also meeting with the Salesforce folks with Barbara to pick up where THAT project left off, seemingly almost a year ago now LOL. That's how slow we move though and that is ok. Luckily I didn't have to be onsite until 9:30, Eloisa wisely moving the meeting an hour forward since everyone with the notable exception of myself, was at the dinner last night and some alcohol was sure to have flowed LOL. And so at least I wasn't all that rushed this morning. The routine of Johnnie walking in with Bailey and Brooklyn was restored, as was my now regular juice first thing in the morning from Whole Foods. And I even had time to go back home and not have to rush. I ended up spending all morning at the site actually and was busy the entire time. Eloisa's meetings are far more informal than Barbara's and at the end of the day there was lots of discussion but more informational rather than decision-making I thought. The Salesforce meeting went well I thought and at least Barbara's questions were finally answered to her satisfaction and hopefully we could move forward with the project now. And then of course there was Rody asking for data and actually looked like he was waiting for it while I was eating my lunch. For the second straight day I brought myself a salad and I will say I'm pretty used to eating that now. Almost 3 weeks in, I think I'm doing ok. I feel more lean to be sure. Pretty sure my numbers have already improved too. Anyway I went home after lunch and noticed a second straight day of summer-like heat. And I did not mind one bit. 

I had one last meeting this afternoon. Turns out I'm working harder this week than last huh? This one is with my IS Team, and only because I was obviously tied up this morning. Really wasn't much to talk about. Actually hurried me up from watching Picard Season 2 Episode 4. They're stuck in Earth 2024. Not the first time there was a travel-back-in-time thing with Star Trek and Picard in particular. But this episode brought in a young Guinan who did not know Picard just yet. I'm all about the interesting twists. Next up is the Johnnie pick-up and the Spanish class. I had made a stop at Panda Express to get his dinner earlier in the afternoon. Went to Sawtelle, didn't want to wait 15 minutes for the teriyaki chicken, then went to Westwood and got it there. In a universe where there really aren't any coincidences, I wonder what THAT was all about? My patience getting tested yet again? I think I did ok this time. Johnnie did really well with his class, and I think just a couple of more weeks and he will actually start making his own sentences. Tonight I dropped him off at Lisa's right after the class. She had an IV medication session at Cedars-Sinai today and though I couldn't drive her, her mom did come to do that. So she was home early. When we got there she had fish in the oven and soup on the stove. And so I humbly accepted this food which I would have scoffed at not even a month ago but now is more of what I eat these days. I was happy to have dinner with all and then on I went home for an early Thursday evening to myself. I'm starting to get into March Madness again, excited that UCLA made the Sweet Sixteen for the second year in a row. Hopefully they have a shot at the Final Four again. That and getting around to finishing 11,000+ steps concluded the evening. It was a good day for work. And now I look forward to Friday tomorrow.

The Leadership Conference

So I'm supposed to be at the Omni Hotel downtown for our company Leadership conference and I'm supposed to be there by 8:30. And it's supposed to last all day too. At least until 3:30 PM. This makes me have to do a bunch of adjustments today from the moment I woke up. Note: FIRST OF ALL, I woke up to pee at 4 PM and guess what. Again with the blood in the pee. But this time I clearly saw a foreign object come out. And that had carried blood with it. I know this because there was hardly any for starters. And the urine was clear right after it. And so I took a pair of tweezers and tried to get it at the bottom of the toilet bowl. Had to dip my hand in my own pee to do it. It was a small object, kind of like a scab. Or is this what kidney stones are? Either way I was far calmer about this. This does not look like it's some life-threatening thing. I would venture to say the session I did before going to sleep - the RELEASE program from the Healy Gold collection - might have had something to do with it actually. I looked in the web again. And this time I see articles on passing blood clots that more than likely come from the urethra. And are mostly harmless, especially if there is no pain associated.  That is more like it. I know I reacted pretty strongly when this happened 3 weeks ago. Today, I would just as soon shrug it off. At the very least, I feel like I didn't have good sleep although the Fitbit says I had decent sleep at least. Oh well I had to get up early anyway to take a shower. And then when Johnnie got done with breakfast we took off early so I could pick up MY breakfast at Whole Foods before I dropped Johnnie off. It saved time so I could leave from the Westside as early as possible. It worked too. I got to the Hotel by 8:20. As far as the conference went, it actually turned out pretty good I thought. These things tend to have different effects on different people. For me, I considered myself pretty mature as a leader/manager. And still I learned something. I learned about Accountability and how enabling people that are otherwise not productive is contributing to lowering our Accountability score as an organization.  Calling people out gently has never been my strong suit. I guess I have to try to learn.

So the conference got done by 3 PM and I was fighting traffic to get home by 3:30. I focused on getting my steps in. I did not do much while sitting down for the bulk of the day until the conference was over. There really wasn't any urgency since I didn't have to pick up Johnnie until 4:30. And so I enjoyed what had turned out to be a warm afternoon by doing my steps. It was 80s warm all day apparently and I welcomed the hotter than usual trend. I picked up Johnnie, got him in front of his computer by 5 PM and got him started with his Spanish class. Today's session was cool because his teacher got him to learn the first song he had ever learned: Daddy finger daddy finger where are you. Man I remember when Johnnie would sing that song over and over when he was first starting to speak actual sentences. Now he's singing it in Spanish and I was tickled to see and hear all of that. When he got done we started pizza night. These days I make the pizza at home since I have to do a cauliflower crust for me. Johnnie gets the regular pizza crust. And he ate almost the entire personal pizza too. Anyway with that I just wanted to chill the rest of the evening. I am now taking the expelling of that object with a little blood in it to be just that, an expulsion of something my body was trying to get rid of.  And I was no longer afraid and I was pretty sure I was not sick. Quite the opposite actually. By expelling stuff, my body is actually on a healing path already. And that is very very good. Of course Johnnie had to watch Hiccup and Toothless and the rest of the Dragon Rescue Riders. I actually sat and watched with him for a bit, reminding myself that it is this time slot if you will that I get to spend with Johnnie. Why would I sit myself in front of the computer away from him? And he and I hand wrestling on the couch and then with Claire too felt like a natural activity. I was about to go to bed early until I get a ping from Eloisa. We're supposed to continue the Leadership get-together tomorrow again at 8:30 but this time at E3. I was ready to duplicate this morning. But the message was that the meeting was starting at 9:30 instead of 8:30. Cool 

Routine Tuesday

You know how much a stickler I am for routine, which is why I felt irritation at being bumped off routine last night. I know it was simply Lisa being Lisa but then again maybe I'm also focused on the podcast I listened to for homework for our upcoming Leadership Summit tomorrow. The podcast focused on accountability and how we contribute to lack of same by empowering the asterisks. Those are the staff that we don't get rid off despite performance issues simply because. Boy do I have one of those in James don't I? And maybe I'm overcompensating and being frustrated at myself for not calling Lisa out as well. Anyway I seemed to be over it this morning, as I was the stuff from Starlette and Dr Liao. I reminded myself I still control how I react and that perhaps I am simply being tested. This morning I squarely asked my Higher Self to simply take care of all that stuff for me as really there is simply nothing for me to worry about. Not if everything turns out in MY favor right? I dropped Johnnie off at school this morning, noted that it is going to be a warm one for the 3rd day of Spring and simply got into my routine Tuesday morning. IS Team Meeting. Nothing happening there. Walk Claire. Start getting my steps in. 3300 for this morning.  No urgency there since I actually did log 16,000 steps last night. And then a soup and salad lunch. I'm really starting to get used to this stuff. But what am i going to do about tomorrow? I'm supposed to be offsite ALL DAY. Do I bring my own food? I guess these are the things special diet eaters face on a daily basis huh? The thing was I took a BP reading this morning and actually got 130/85 without having to find the arm position that would give me that. As in I simply took. That WAS my BP. Is it normal? Not quite. Just a little bit elevated.  But it is in the manageable range. Which means I can still get it down even lower couldn't I? The good thing was it was just one more thing on my image cycling list that is working its way to fruition and I couldn't be more pleased. I can't wait to get other physical stuff squared away as well. And with that I sort of cruised the afternoon away. I mean the day was so nice I couldn't very well keep myself glued to my computer couldn't I? I couldn't wait for Johnnie pick-up time so I could start the 2nd part of my day. Of course these days dinner time, any meal time actually, is dominated by what I'm going to eat isn't it? Easy enough to take Johnnie to Panda Express and get his usual. But how about me? What am I going to eat tonight? It would have been easy just to get veggies at Panda Express too. But then again I had all those vegetables at home that I bought this past weekend. Couldn't let those go to waste could I? I simply need to supplement it with some sort of protein. And so we made a pitstop at Ralphs and I got myself some tuna poke Hawaiian style. It had sweet hawaiian sauce on it which meant sugar, but hey I was simply going to cook the tuna anyway. And that is the picture I posted. My tuna poke stir fry. It turned out to be pretty darned good too. The other picture was the Tuesday night staple of Johnnie eating his dinner and Claire the dog hoping to eat some of his scraps. As it was I gave her chunks of chicken from his plate that he didn't eat. I wasn't going to give her any of MY tuna. And then off we went - me to my computer to finish up some stuff, Johnnie to his Dragon Rescue Riders. Wasn't it just a couple of months ago we were watching Wild Kratts almost every single night? Wasn't it just a year ago it was the Octonauts? I wonder how long this next phase with dragons is going to last? Just so no one thinks I park him in front of the TV after dinner until bedtime, we did manage to do some review of his Spanish for tomorrow's lesson. I was happy to see that it had stuck and that he does remember. He also did some more drawings of his dragons now that THAT seems to dominate his creative juices at the moment. As for me, I was trying to get ahead of tomorrow's day. I did decide to bring my own food and I had grilled some salmon earlier in the afternoon. That will be lunch. AND I ironed my shirt for tomorrow. Hadn't done that in more than a year. More than 2 really. Johnnie was in bed by 9. And by then I was doing my Healy sessions. I did PURE this morning. And I did RELEASE tonight. Just another routine Tuesday.

Started As a Great Monday But...

Today started as a great Monday. When I got up I realized that I had gotten up once in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. But that was it. And I did my thing easily. And then I looked at my Fitbit. My resting heart rate was at 67! That was the lowest it has been in more than a year! The new eating patterns are definitely working. So that is excellent! When I got up this morning, I walked right to Whole Foods. Got my celery/apple juice and then circled back all the way home. I had gotten 5000 steps and 54 active minutes doing just that and it wasn't even 8:45 yet. Even better was that I actually felt good. Energized even with the walk. And I enjoyed the first Monday in Spring too. There's talk that Daylight Savings might become permanent. I don't mind actually.  I don't like it when it's dark when I pick up Johnnie. And then I had plenty of time to do some meditation and centering execises before my first meeting of the day at 10 PM. I focused on having another eezy-peezy week, noting that I have to be at a Leadership Event on Wednesday downtown and at East LA the following day for a strategy meeting. Busy but not busy. Kind of like the 10 AM meeting. It was supposed to be for the HRSA Audit prep. And yes I needed to attend but then it got done in 45 minutes and it took more than 45 minutes afterwards for a sidebar conversation on the sliding fee stuff the Ops folks are trying to solve. All I can do is run reporting if/when they need it. But I stuck with the meeting until I couldn't anymore. Then I made up some excuse at 11:30. I was hungry anyway. I heated up some leftover daal and put some garbanzo beans in it. That did tide me over. And then I fried up the rest of the mahi mahi and made a cucumber salad. THAT's a lunch. That's one thing about this new eating pattern. I may feel better and healthier and are already reaping benefits in just a couple of weeks. But boy I sure am hungry all the time. And it's not like I'm eating less either. For example, I had the daal but then followed it up with a salad with a lot of shrimp. AND washed it down with fresh-squeezed pineapple juice. So no, I'm not exactly starving either.  Just that with a lot of walking - remember Mondays are my 15,000 steps days - I need the energy boost too. And then for dinner I tried making spaghetti. Yes, spaghetti and meatballs. Meatballs made of BEYOND and spaghetti made of cauliflour. Look at the pic. It does not exactly look inviting does it? Still it wasn't bad. OK, the meatballs actually were not bad at all. The spaghetti though? THAT is going to take a lot to get used to.

Still, it looked like a smooth afternoon to be followed by the Johnnie pick-up and a routine evening. Except that it didn't turn out that way. First i get a call from Lisa saying her parents were actually over visiting. And if I could pick up Johnnie later than usual. I didn't mind that so much. And then an email from Starlette about HIE data somehow irritated me. Followed by an email, another data request from Dr Liao that irritated me even further. And so it was that my patience got tested. And I did not do well. I brooded over the Starlette request thinking she doesn't know what the -f- she's doing. Same with Dr Liao. These guys just make requests without understanding the process. I'm going to have to unpack all that of course. And I am more impatient with the wasted time more than anything. The problem was, now I am really in an impatient mood. And now I can sense myself getting annoyed that i hadn't heard from Lisa by 8 PM. It's like she just screwed up my routine. In my irritated mood, I went to the soccer field where she asked me to pick up Claire and Johnnie. I know I was short. I did not feel like socializing. But at least I was polite. And Johnnie didn't know any better. He had all of 20 minutes before his bedtime. And in that time, I made banana bread. Except that THAT too suffered from my impatience. It crumbled because I didn't give it time to cool off. SHIT. SHIT. SHIT. I did not let my day end well.  Lesson to learn.

Golf Sunday with Twists

So today is a normal golf Sunday except... it's also LA Marathon Day, which really didn't mean much now that I had discovered a freeway route to Roosevelt Golf Course. I thought about how last week was significant from a timemarker standpoint because it marked 2 years that we had been sent home due to the COVID pandemic. LA Marathon Sunday was a significant timemarker too. All those years ago in 2006, when Lisa and I ran the marathon for the first time together, I considered it the day we actually DID get together as a couple. That was 16 years ago if you can believe it :) And finally, today is Spring Equinox. It is the FIRST DAY OF SPRING! Yay! Winter is officially over! And we can look forward to plants and flowers blooming again. Today, I grabbed my sweet vegetable juice from Whole Foods and headed out to the course. No problems at all getting there. In fact, Scott was already there by 8:30 AM. And we were able to tee off 10 minutes early. We were paired with a couple of guys we had played with before so that was pretty cool. I remembered doing visualizations last night about having a nice game today. After all, the last time we played here I hit 6 bogeys. Then again, the last time we played here at Roosevelt was that day I had the blood-in-the-urine thing right on the course. I think I'm pretty much recovered from that though. And I note that my blood sugar and my blood pressure seems to have stabilized too. And my resting heart rate was all the way back down to 68 this morning. Cool! I guess we continue with the new eating patterns for a while. 

As far as the golf, the visualization must not have stuck much. A couple of whiffs in the sand trap right on the first hole sort of ruined my par. And although I didn't have a blow-up hole on the next 2 holes, I might as well have. I get that visualization and image cycling works. But consistency is also the key. And I know I simply need to have a different energy in the moment. As in in the moment I hit the ball. To KNOW I'm going to hit it square and it's going to go far. I did that on Hole 4 finally, swatting a good tee shot. Actually I did it the rest of the game at least from the tee box. Hole 4 produced a bogey, so did Hole 5 and I was on in 3 on Hole 6 but whiffed my putts. Same on the rest of the holes actually. I got to the vicinity of the holes, but I didn't exactly get in the right mindset and focus when hitting my chips from the fairway. Ah oh well. At least it turned out to be a nice, brisk, beautiful Sunday. Another one anyway. And by the time we got done, by 11:20 by the way, it had gotten significantly warmer. Usually I would stop and get Mediterranean food, or perhaps IN-N-Out. But with my new eating habits locked in, todays lunch was a shrimp salad augmented with some daal that I bought yesterday. And it was plenty filling. Usually I start post-golf with a nap. But I had some pretty good sleep last night and with a lot less heavy eating, I was not tired. I do remember getting up a few times last night to pee. And I remember nothing much came out. Hey better than blood right? But then again I've been doing the Healy stuff on my bladder and prostate meridians so it might simply be healing. I do know I still feel urinary urgency so work to be done still. I did find this video about how prostrate enlarges because of a hormonal imbalance. Estrogen. Hmmm. Interesting. You know I have a strong belief that everything is based on an imbalance of something. The hormone imbalance would make sense actually. And so there can be some supplement I can take too that would help alleviate that. I didn't really do much for the rest of the day. I noted that last week was Tech Council week and turned out to be really eezy-peezy. And then somehow a CT-scan didn't happen. I will take that to mean that it was not necessary and I am totally ok with that. For dinner tonight I did some vegetable stir-frying. Green pepper, cabbage, onion, tomatoes and I was pretty filled afterwards too. Put in a couple of pieces of smoked salmon for protein. And then watched some March Madness to round out Sunday. All good.

A Long Johnnie Saturday

So I listened to Lisa complaining about how she wanted to spend more time with Johnnie and be a mom, one of many rants she had last night. I hope she wasn't thinking that I'd give up a day, which by itself is moot since Johnnie is in school on weekdays. She complained that she only has an hour with him last night, likely an hour with him tonight. That is what happens when you work all the time was what I was thinking and really I'm no different. When I have him I really only see him after school and evenings and what I hope Lisa realizes is what I focus on when I have him. Maximize whatever time you have with him. Today would be an exception for me since I have him pretty much the entire day. Something I get to do only once every couple of weeks.  I was at Lisa's early actually since she had an early start for today and when I got there Johnnie was still asleep. I got in his bed and closed my eyes for a bit, no rush to wake him up obviously since it IS Saturday. He can sleep in as long as he wanted. He woke up just in time to say goodbye to his mom. And then I got a glimpse of what mommy and son do on a weekend morning. He read a cartoon with me, did some stickers and then I got him dressed and ready to go to my apartment for the day. I told him we had a lot to do today since I did see his homework sheet for next week about putting an information sheet together on an animal of his choosing. He would choose a pangolin, which i didn't even know what it was. It reminds you of an armadillo actually and so I told Johnnie we had to look for pictures and make his sheet readable for his homework. Anyway my goal was simply to do at least one activity with him that he could focus on.  Before that we had to get my car washed, dirty because of all the time I spent in the last couple of weeks parking outdoors. And then of course there was breakfast at McDonald's. We didn't go to Elysee because I am trying to stick to my new eating patterns. And we did stop at Whole Foods to pick me up a celery/apple/carrot juice. That would be my breakfast. Johnnie did his usual pancakes and sausage. I actually wanted to make a trip to Target this morning, but I somehow got to Westwood, where upon getting there Johnnie reminded me that we wanted to go to the one in Culver City instead. That was when I somehow made it to Sprouts on Westwood Blvd. I remembered that they sold nuts and other assorted plant stuff in bulk. And I decided to load up on my vegetables and other stuff I could eat in this new "vegetarian" mode that I'm in. I bought some daal and lentils and soup at least enough for the rest of this weekend. And so what did I end up eating for lunch? I had some of the Indian spicy lentil dish that I got but i supplemented it also. I supplemented it with a fish filet. Ok, it was just the fish and lettuce part of the fish sandwich I got at Jack-in-the-Box. We were there because I was getting Johnnie chicken strips for lunch of course. And I'm trying to widen my horizon of choices for where to get some thing healthy to eat. Yes I know that that fried fish isn't exactly at the top of the list when it comes to choosing healthy food to eat.  But it's likely the only one I can eat at Jack-in-the-box. So usually I knock off for a nap even while Johnnie is with me on a Saturday. But today I was evergized. I got Johnnie to work on his pangolin homework. I found at least 6 pictures and later on we would print them at Staples. Got us out of the house anyway. And then I made him re-write the sheet he created for his class. I made him do this because I could barely read what he wrote. The words were there, but with the combination of mis-spellings for some of the big words, and the fact that he was missing spaces between words, I had to have him clean it up. Sadly I did not exhibit the patience that a good teacher would. Rather I was pretty bossy and found myself yelling at him. What was I expecting? Writing is the skill he needs to work on Lisa and I know that. But it's not like he's behind with that either. He simply needs to get reminded of the writing rules like punctuation and when to capitalize, and definitely the space between words. Anyway when we got done with that exercise, Johnnie got antsy. Yeah I'm a real bossy dad for making him work on his Saturday. I'm trying to get him to learn work ethic. He proceeded to mix in his own play. Look at him inventing air bowling with a soccer ball and pylons inside the house. Of course, he kept on trying to dribble the ball, which got on my nerves after a while. And out came my grumpy, bossy, yelling self again. I yelled at Johnnie to stop driblling the ball and making noise. Seeing his face with that disappointed look because I yelled at him just jarred me into realizing how unnecessary that was. Besides, do i really want him associating me with some of Lisa's own antics? <yelling> He's just letting off steam and before long he and i were wrestling on the couch like we always used to do.  Perhaps I need to do a better job of lining up activities for him too. Can't just have him watch Dragon Rescue Riders all day long could I? By the time Lisa called to let us know she was done at her office it was nearly 7 PM. I made Johnnie a pizza for dinner. The Boboli special. And I made myself mahi mahi and stir fried some veggies to go with it. A nice healthy dinner for me. And then it was already time to drop off Johnnie and Claire. He had been with me all day, all of 12 hours. Generally a pretty good day except for my bouts of impatience and grumpiness with Johnnie. I have to work on that still don't I?

Tank Friday

For the fourth straight Friday, I packed my laundry stuff and towels and just as soon as Lisa dropped off Claire, we went right back to her house. And even though the road was blocked right in front of her house because LA DWP was doing some work, I chose not to think of that as something of a block to my plans this morning. The plan was simply to do laundry and to take a shower. I hadn't showered since Monday and I will admit, I was smelling a little gamey when I woke up this morning. So getting those 2 things done may be a lowering of a bar, but since it's Friday I didn't care. As it was I made some fresh-squeezed OJ for breakfast and was on my way. I got started so early that I was done with everything at Lisa's house by 10:30 AM as a matter of fact. A good thing too because the workers working on her front porch had already gotten there and were making a lot of noise that was scaring Claire. Of course she would find no respite going to my apartment. There's workers in the next apartment working on the wall mouldings and floors, making a lot of racket too. I noted that today was payday Friday and my checking account had swelled to over $40K and I still have more than a week before rent is due. In fact, when I put together my savings sitting in E*Trade, and another little sum in TD Ameritrade, both waiting to be put into action of course, my savings were already at $95K!! THAT is a significant number because even after rent this next month, my savings are already more than $91K!!! I have achieved one of those items in my image cycling exercise, which was to have $91K in savings! This is a significant deal because it is one more proof that THAT exercise absolutely works! I mean when I moved from Maplewood a little more than 3 1/2 years ago would I have thought I would be able to amass these savings? It is also significant because I have more than an entire year's worth of savings to bank on for living expenses in case something at QueensCare were to happen. I mean we had yet another one of those 'so-so will be leaving and her last day is today' surprise memos from work today. You just never know what might happen. But it is good to know for me that I am taken care of no matter what does. For at least a year anyway. And a year is a long time. NOW to extend that year to much much longer.

In the meantime, the other points of focus today was my eating and health patterns of course. Doing steps was fairly easy even though I sort of didn't get started until after lunch. For lunch I had a salmon salad, which I had to eat earlier than planned because I started to get hungry. I only had the OJ for breakfast and it clearly was not enough. The salmon worked out just fine though and by mid-afternoon, not only had I caught up with my steps, but I also got a session of Healy GOLD program done. As far as tangible results or feelings I could sense, I know I get really tired after these sessions and that I sleep easily after. Which is why I saved a couple for later on before I go to bed. I think it's simply because my body is de-toxing. I know a cold sore suddenly popped up. Not a major sore mind you, but a cold sore just the same. That is always a sign that my immune system is fighting something off, or getting rid of something. I'm pee-ing a lot too, though that may simply be because of all the juice I am ingesting. I know my pee is clear for sure.  Sometmes it's almost like I'm pee-ing water. Anyway I was in good shape by the time Johnnie pick-up time came around. I got him around 5 PM and then off we went to Panda Express Sawtelle. This time though I had a wrinkle in mind. We went to Nijiya Market first so I could pick up some salmon sashimi. And then I included a bowl with simply veggies in it. That would give me greens+salmon dinner. Pretty healthy enough I'd say. Look at the pic I posted of Johnnie cleaning up after himself after dinner. I do have to say that with the robot vacuum, that is a much simpler proposition than manual sweeping all the time. I kept him with me until 8:25. We hadn't heard from Lisa still and I figured I'd at least get him cleaned up and ready for bed. As it was she did call and we were already at her house. And I was already starting to give Johnnie his bath.  Of course she had to rant and rave about her day. Nothing new really. Staff simply not caring about being there, in this case her hygienists. I guess she doesn't have any tomorrow. Hey people are burning out. I think you have to bake that in as a business owner. This time I simply let her rave and express her anger and frustration. And when she stopped, I urged her to keep going. I did not accept her negative energy changing mine is all. And I wasn't condescending either. And so WE did not have an argument. In fact, she expressed her anger and she seemed to move on. She was even just fine when she got home in the middle of Johnnie's shower. I put on her quilt cover for her while SHE took a shower. And then I took off for home, finishing MY Healy energy treatments. Despite it all, it turned out to be a pretty nonchalantly good day. 

Eezy Breezy

The day after Tech Council Meeting day is usually a chill day and I intended today to be no different. Already first thing it promised to be a warmer than usual and as the day progressed, it kept its promise. Nothing like taking an afternoon work to pad up my steps count and enjoy the warmth of the sun on my face and hear the breeze blowing through the palm trees on the street. Lovin' the M&M moment obviously. The day started so easy that I immediately did my Thursday download of the latest Picard Season 2 episode and spent a good hour watching the latest exploits of Picard with the Borg queen in between the IS Team Meeting, my meeting with Dennis, and my meeting with the EHR Team meeting. Oh and of course the walk with Claire outside too. All of that pretty much took up the entire morning. And then all I had left on my mind was what I was going to eat for lunch. That occupies my mind a great deal these days. It is way harder to eat healthy than it is to eat regular crap food all the time. That may be the challenge perhaps, but I do agree that even the entire Covid thing is really a case in how unhealthy a lot of American people are. Those were the ones that got the virus, got hospitalized, and some even worse. That is the point of this healthy eating though isn't it?! I will admit I do feel better in the morning thought I am not so sure it isn't just the healthy eating and a lot of juicing, but a combination of that and the energy image cycling stuff I have been doing, the release work that I have been doing, the frequency stuff I've been doing and as of a couple of days ago, work with the Healy device. I think simply getting off meat should already help although the trip to Whole Foods this morning to get fresh-squeezed juice. I got the juice alright. It seemed a lot better than the one I tried last week. Until I tasted a whole mouthful of parsley. That overpowered the sweetness of the apples like crazy. Still I had to believe that was very beneficial for me. For lunch I had leftover lentil soup with some spinach stacked in there for good measure. And I had a mini-version of the old Lisa salad. Without the cheese. I was plenty full at the end of all that.

At the end of the day when it was close to the time to pick up Johnnie, I trekked to Panda Express Sawtelle to get him his dinner. I figured we weren't going to leave the house anymore once we got done with his Spanish class. Speaking of which, today was more or less a review of yesterday - which was all about colors. Johnnie did so well yesterday and as far as I could tell he did just fine today too. His teacher sort of gameified the lesson with crossword puzzles, and stuff so it turned out to be fun for Johnnie too. And then while he wolfed down his teriyaki chicken, I made myself some stir fried veggies and mahi mahi too. I could get used to eating fish almost every day. I do have to say I don't feel like I'm eating less, just that I'm not bloated with meat. So tonight being a Thursday and a Thursday without piano lessons for Lisa, I got a call from her around 6:30. Of course she was at her office. Of course she had work stuff she had to do. She asked for Johnnie to get dropped off at 7:30 and I almost felt bad just yanking him from his Dragon Rescue Riders TV show. I mean look at the picture of me, him, and the dog. That's pretty much our evenings mostly. Just having fun, goofing off. As it was Lisa beat us to her house and then I went back home to mine, to do some Healy scans. I did the RELEASE program again and like the first time, I felt tired right afterwards. Not as sleepy as last night, but I do feel like the device is doing SOMETHING. We'll see what the metrics say right? Oh BTW, tonight was the first night of the NCAA Mens Basketball tournament. Yes, March Madness is upon us. UCLA escaped with a win in its 1st round game. Let's hope they play better the next game...

Tech Council Meeting Day

So I started the day with a meditation that today's meetings will be a breeze. The first one was the Communications Meeting and I wasn't even on the agenda for that one, until I reminded Lupe at the beginning of the meeting. I was fully prepared to share all my stats I was waiting on the Tech Council Meeting later on to show. And as it was, the meeting itself got done in less than an hour. It was supposed to go from 8:30 to 10 AM. So much so I had to move the Data Team meeting to later than usual in order to accomodate for it. No need now. I think a lot of us are in the middle of meeting fatigue actually. It feels like we're having a Town Hall more than just once every 3 months. And I feel like I am re-hashing stuff from a month ago. Still, it was an eezy-peezy meeting and much more than I had already asked for. Now to gear up for Tech Council Meeting. Even the Data Team Meeting did not take that long. Shilpa as of a day ago was asking for help because she was working on 4 reports. By the end of the day, 3 of the 4 were done, either because she got help from James, or simply because I was able to point her to the data. I remind myself that even while I was in the middle of the waiting room yesterday, I was actually able to direct her and got one of those data projects finished. We're all good. So finally I got to the Tech Council Meeting which I had moved to 2 PM due to popular demand. AND I expanded it to an hour-and-a half too. I didn't mind so long as I had enough to eat for lunch LOL. Today it was some fried catfish, with me doing the frying and I ate it with cucumber and tomato salad. It turned out to be pretty good in fact, and filled me up just fine. As far as the meeting itself, I did not have enough material for an hour-and-a-half. That's because we always end up talking about something else that would take as much as 20 minutes or so to discuss. BUT NOT TODAY!! We had no such topics! Nobody asked too many questions. And when I looked up at the end of the meeting, it only took 45 minutes! A full 45 minutes earlier than scheduled. Wow. And it was EEZY-PEEZY as it got. THANK YOU God!

With that meeting concluded, I immediately headed outside and felt the warm breeze as if it were a day  with the Santa Ana winds. Warm and breezy. I am loving it. I caught up on my steps and enjoyed the warm-ish afternoon. Felt more like late spring or early summer. And when I got home, I got on the HEALY device once and for all. I did 3 programs and yes I can definitely feel a surge of low current. I felt it in my arms and some muscles in my legs twitched. So there was activity to be sure. I put on the RELEASE program. ANd also the kidney and the prostate program. We shall see what happens. What I do know, is that I felt tired afterwards. As in I felt like my body was de-toxing something and worked hard to do it. I had enough gas left to pick up Johnnie and of course today was Spanish class day. And so I had one more Zoom picture to put up there. He did pretty good today. They worked on colors. And when he got done, I had caulifornia crust pizza ready for dinner for him. My side had pineapple, spinach, and almond cheese substitute. When I bit in one of his leftover pieces, I suddenly noticed the difference. Cheese is cheese. But hey, I think I can say that I am already feeling better from the diet change. I had Johnnie go to bed earlier than 9 PM today. That's because he was still sleepy when I got him up at 6:45 this morning. He is still getting used to the time change I think. Tonight though I was tired myself, still I believe from the Healy device. And so I myself got to bed by 9 PM. It was pretty much an eezy-peezy kind of day though. Exactly as I had visualized and thought about. And all was good.