Start of Summer Monday

There was definitely something missing on my morning walk this morning. And that would be parents walking their kids to school. The streets were real quiet in fact. All to say summer has officially started. As far as I was concerned, it wasn't really all different. Another Monday morning walk to start things rolling towards 15,000 steps Monday. Now that I've lost all this weight and starting to focus more on packing muscle, I do wonder whether that may be a tad too much. I mean cardio metrics are already pretty good and right where I want mine to be. Now I have to work on the structural stuff. So I made a detour to Mar Vista Park to work on chin-ups and pull-ups. People there using the bars? No problem. I've already set up my own station at me. See pic. I was determined to do more sets and more chin-ups today. And I got to 25. Took me 3 sets to do it but I am not counting. I am working towards getting it done in as few number of sets as possible. At least I feel better and stronger. And so by 9:30 AM I had already downed my celery/apple/carrot juice, taken a nice, refreshing shower, and pronounced myself ready to work LOL. I remember how overwhelmed I felt on Friday, how I was taken over by the energy of impatience, annoyance, and resentment. And this morning during my meditation, I had an A-ha about that. I was resentful...towards ME! I was mad at MYSELF! And that's because I didn't think I pushed back at all when I felt like people - Lisa mainly - took advantage of my time.  It's kind of like her own example... she gets angry at her dad and projects it on me. I got irritated with myself and kept that energy and projected it to everyone else. And so I spent some time this morning releasing that and letting go. Processing that and letting go. And I knew it was going to keep coming back. And I knew I was going to need to keep cleaning and clearing. Cleaning and Clearing. I needed to forgive MYSELF. I reminded myself that I am not bad, I am not weak, I am not my EGO. And I simply needed to focus on things to turn out my way. Instead of focusing on the negative feelings. I needed to be grateful for the lesson, and then simply move right on.

And so it was that I started to work on stuff that hit my helpdesks on Friday. And wouldn't you know, without the burden of resentment and negativity, I knocked off 3 things even before that Director's Meeting at 10 AM. And I brushed off resentment towards needing to attend that too. Just part of the job. Report on visits? Already have a dashboard for that. Report on claims? Already have a report in EPIC for that. AND best part is I was able to document everything and all was good. Like I felt caught up... But not quite. This week is actually Tech Council week so of course I have to do the content for that. And I even got started right in the middle of the Director's Meeting. And so when I got done with that at noon - yes it took the whole entire 2 hours, I was already feeling good about the day. Got stuff accomplished, got my walk done, got my upper body work done... and OBTW now my arms are sore. And I couldn't be happier. I even supplemented my walk with a trip to Trader Joe's. On foot. Forgot to buy Johnnie his bananas. I have to remind myself that he is no longer in school and this week we're not doing summer camp for him because the Au's from Hawaii are here visiting for the week. And so I have to figure out what to do with him for the next couple of days while he's home. Can't have him watching Pokemon all day. Gotta figure out something active for him to do. Anyway  by the time I got back I was already at 10,000 steps and it wasn't even 3:30 yet. It did not escape me that it had gotten so much warmer.  Ahh summer. On the walk back I thought about summers past. Kicking it at USC Stevens seemed like we didn't work all that much LOL. And then at QueensCare in the early days it seemed like we always had some project to do. The E3 build, moving to the FRB. This summer I am focused on working on income replacement so I could work for myself or not even have to work at all. Once and for all. I am putting it out there as my summer homework.  Or I could learn how to manifest $3M tomorrow and be done with it now. Or I coudl simply stop focusing on it and just know that it is here. Now. And let it come to me. Wouldn't THAT be cool. That was actually what occupied my thoughts in the afternoon and it felt good to feel like I had it. All that was interrupted by a call from Lisa. I looked up and it was already 5:30 PM! They were already on their way back from spending the day with Nikki in Valencia. We needed to coordinate pick-up. And so I went to her house at 7 PM, took Claire and brought her to my apartment. And then I picked up Johnnie at the soccer field. By this time it was already 8 PM. But I didn't care so much. After all no more school for Johnnie means he doesn't have to get up early tomorrow. I let him watch Pokemon until past 9 PM in fact. And then I reflected on the day. The feel of summer. So much so I had to post the sunset at the Santa Monica Airport. It was 7 PM when I took those pics and I love it that it is still light that late. I AM looking forward to a great summer. Even though I have no idea what we're going to be doing LOL.