Half Saturday Johnnie

So today Lisa is working and all her narcissistic bullshit aside, I went to her house on time to pick up . In time to let her know why she was upset at me last night. Really did there have to be a reason. I am her rage tampon I get it.  And rather than resist it or engage it, I will simply do what I can to jiu-jitsu it aside and go on with my day. Why let her fuck up your day right? Already I'm doing my good deed for the day doing the whole groomer thing drop-off with Claire this morning. Oh and now I have to drop Johnnie off at her office at 2:30 PM when she got done because she has one of her friends over, whoever it was I didn't know and really I didn't care. Not if I'm not invited anyway. I have the morning with Johnnie and that would be enough. We went to Elysee for breakfast this morning, had our usual scrambled eggs and sausage and OJ, and then went on from there to Sprouts for grocery shopping. For some reason Johnnie wanted to be in charge of the grocery cart. He either wants to be part of the whole shopping deal, and this is his way of contributing or maybe it was because I told him he had to earn his Pokemon cards that I bought yesterday by doing errands. Either way I was very much fine with it. A week ago I didn't see him the entire weekend for 3 whole days. I'm just glad for whatever time I could spend today.  And we had to go right back to Lisa's house anyway just as soon as I put the groceries away because the dog groomer appointment was at 11 AM. I figured I'd drop off Claire, Johnnie and I could watch something together and then we could go to lunch at the Century City mall like we had been doing the last couple of times Lisa had a work-Saturday. That plan would evaporate just as soon as the dog groomer had Claire for more than an hour. In fact, she had her for 2 hours! I mean I didn't care, it wasn't my money. And believe you me after the 'argument" this morning I realized Lisa was triggered yet again by money stuff. What the fuck it had anything to do with me I don't know and I don't really care anymore. She can rage all she wants as long as I'm not around. I even had a little talk with Johnnie about it and told him that whenever mommy gets into that state, he should simply hug her and tell her it's going to be ok. I'm sure that will work. With me, if I told her the exact same words, she'd only get angrier. And that is fine. I'm going to start limiting interactions with her is all I can do.

Anyway, while the groomer was finishing up with Claire, I got us lunch at Panda Express Marina Del Rey. And then picked up Claire on the way home and we all had lunch back at the apartment. Even though I got my time with Johnnie I did have to detour a chunk of time to do something for Lisa yet again that she will never appreciate. That she squeezes time out of people. Still I took a pic of Johnnie and I in her front yard and for today that is good enough for me. I did do the drop off at 2:30 just as she asked. I did my goodbyes with Johnnie before going in, giving him a big hug and a kiss and his "I love you Dad" was everything I needed for the rest of the weekend. I realized by that time I was actually tired. Like I needed a nap. Probably because I stayed up until real late last night - past 1 AM - watching the new season of the Umbrella Academy. And so for the afternoon, I put on some isochronic tones to get myself to theta frequency and when I woke up it was already close to 5 PM. Wow... I napped for at least an hour and a half. I looked at my Fitbit and I was barely at 13 active minutes at 40,000+ steps. Oh well. I actually woke up hungry and considering everything I have eaten in the last couple of days I really felt like going back to the old new eating patterns. That would be cutting  carbs and sugar and no red meat. I already had mushroom chicken for lunch. I decided I'd have cauliflower pizza with mushroom, pineapple toppings for dinner.  And I didn't feel so bloated like I did yesterday after eating those tacos from Poquito Mas. Still it was a nice summer Saturday early evening and I decided to finish off to 10,000+ steps right after dinner. I had a nice walk around my neighborhood, and wouldn't you know I got my heart rate up such that I finished with almost 60 active minutes today. I noticed that the streets weren't all that busy either. Just a quiet Saturday night eh? When I got back I was actually sticky sweaty. Hey, it IS summer after all right? And I kept listening to morphic fields too. And watching videos about how to deal with narcissistic behavior. Seems to me the best way to is to avoid it. I mean I went in to the office when I dropped off Johnnie but I had a couple of words with Lisa and that was that. Why does it need to be more? Because she'll say I'm being an asshole? So what? That's the narcissist talking. Do I really care about there feelings? I have to remind myself she has not one ounce of empathy. And her feelings are not my responsibility. I washed off all that negative thought crap with a shower this evening. A good thing since I hadn't showered since Monday LOL. And the shower actually had me chill enough to be drowsy by 10 PM. I could make up more sleep.  A decent Saturday it was and the win here was that I did not let Lisa screw it up for me. Johnnie and I did just fine.